Less than a week to go

I leave on Saturday. What does that mean? It means I am not sleeping. It means I am trying desparately to grab a hold of all I can here in Israel (like holding onto sand). I am finally taking pictures, but moreso of people and things I've done rather than aestically pleasing ones. And I am trying to get myself in them to show that more than my camera went on vacation but that I did too. I am going back to my favorite restaurants and shops. I've had samboosak twice this week already. And orange/carrot/pineapple juice by the liter. And Independence park and Gan Sakar and Nadine's pub. And many more things and places that fit the same category.
I am still open with strangers, but to a much less degree. And I am not necessarily kind with my time. I realize that I don't have all the time in the world, so I will limit spontaneous conversations to a few minutes usually. I don't like that any more.
I am now thinking actively of what I want to be like in CO, becaues it will be a reality shortly.
Don't ask for specific answers because I don't have them yet.
The phones have been having problems. First off mine is just running out of juice and the battery goes whenever it feels like it. But more importantly is that the international lines are very jammed because of all the activity going on here. It is a very busy time in this country, coupled with tragedies. I am sure you all heard of the shooting in the old city on Friday. I have walked those corridors numerous times and had planned on doing so that evening. It's very real for me. And then the pedestrian street, Ben Yehuda, had some sort of publicity thing (Jewish Agency for Israel or something). Three nights in a row they had a bomb scare where they made us take different routes. Every time it's only been a scare though. By the third night, I was becoming slightly desensitized to the fear and irritation was setting in. How quickly our perspectives can be altered.
I am in denial about leaving too. The friends I've made here are threatening to kidnap me. I told them that might be against Shabbat Halacha, but they'd have to check with their Rav. They too are in denial about my departure.
So the plan is to go to a Tel Aviv beach on Tuesday I think. And Tzfat sometime. I am not sure what is in Tzfat, but I have the desire to go again. Spend 7hrs on a bus and $15 for no apparent reason, why not? Wednesday I will be in J-lem for sure. Thursday is a friend's celebration for something in the IDF that I really want to go to. He's in one of the elite units and this is a pretty big deal. I have not a clue where this is being held. Friday is pre-Shabbat and I just have to be in J-lem. Then I leave Saturday.
With that I sign off (plus my time is up on the computer)/
I will see you all very soon.